I can remember serial numbers of hardware I've repaired, procedures and parameters for testing, programming, tuning, etc, and obscure details of jobs I've done months or years ago, but cannot remember people's names whether they are people I meet in real life, characters in books or movies.
I have severe problems remembering names unless I meet the person several times (6-10). I remember them better if chatting over text.
I also have anxiety and insomn issues.
I also have problems about not being socially very awkward, even doing weird jokes that may be too weird or twisted. I also may get annoying in social contexts and doing physical jokes, so I try to avoid doing it (but sometimes I act impulsively).
I have severe problems dressing adequately. I consider it a terribly boring and stressing procedure I want to get rid of it ASAP, I'm still unable to be able to find clothes fastly and combine them correctly. I would prefer to be nude or wear an always clean and temperature comfortable uniform like in some scifi novels/movies.
I'm somewhat time blind and having severe problems organizing my daily tasks.
I was good at maths in adolescence, but not anymore .I'm a "bad student" too, Active Learning makes me learn very fast, but formal education is more into memory and instruction than deep understanding and thinking. I'm going to improve my maths and physics skills, of course.
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I have ADHDAnd I care too much about my issues! And that makes my anxiety to rise most of the time.
You are weird. You have curiosity. You try to know yourself better. You want to improve yourself.
Are you pursuing the fallacy of stupid happiness? Get some brain damage to lower your IQ and get some easy life. Despite of that, you might be unhappy too!
Take care yourself, get emancipated,
don't let others fuck about your self image. Be moderately defiant, choose your own path and have very clear goals.
- Eat well: Avoid any kind of sugars (that includes any kind of processed cereals, even bread!) and that shit known as artificial sweetener, get them from raw fruits. Get a moderate amount of saturated fats, forbid trans fats (they are proved to fuck your memory!). Get a dinner high in proteins. I found a higher protein diet makes me feel better, but I have hypothyroidism (despite I have prescribed an hormonal substitute, it's not perfect).
- Sleep well. Be relaxed hours before sleeping, avoid any kind of stimulating activity such as computers, smartphones, TV. You can read or listen relaxing music. Avoid any kind of light source or your circadian rhythm abnormalities could get worse.
- Do enough exercise to improve your metabolism and relax. That makes you smarter and in better mood. I have problems following this, but I'm trying to improve that. Avoid intensive exercise hours before sleeping. I do martial arts and plan to do aerobic exercises too.
About self-steem, that double edged sword:
- I like the Buddhist concept about not rely on it, but it's very difficult to put in practice and most of those that are proud of achieve it are just arrogant posers that want to be some kind of deity to others (lamas and other kind of spiritual/science/thinking leaders).
- Believe in yourself, don't let others unmotivate you even if others consider you stubborn or even worse. Reduce your dependence on getting support from others all time, because we are all individuals and are really metaphorically alone most of the time. Be your own leader!
- Be critic with yourself, but avoid negativism. Negativism is a mischievous bastard that appears very easily, it's part of yourself and your worst enemy (I know it very good!).
Do things! It's better do something stupid than being a zombie!
I'm fucking impulsive, so I have severe problems following it. But I'm at it and never going to give up!
Are you weird? Be proud of it! Weird people are those that change the world! And remember geniuses are weird, even in electronics!