O.P. here...
I 'GUESS' what I was meaning about '
Once' being a '
Proud Man'....
Was not so much to 'put myself down', for what I 'used' to be able to Achieve, but the realization that I no longer
have that ability to '
contribute' & 'pass on knowledge' that I at least '
Think' I once had!!! But I don't Mind that!!,
as long as I was able to contribute something when & if I could over the years!!! I'm NOT one's everyday person!
My GREATEST joy years back, was in conversing with/helping
newcomers/apprentices/work-experience even lads,
where I would lovingly teach them EVERYTHING I know. Whereby SOME of my 'associates', would 'admit' to actually
teaching them '
nothing', because
'Passing-On-Knowledge' meant that they would lose there jobs/necessity !!!

I NEVER ever thought that way, throughout the decades of my careers!! And people trusted/appreciated me for it!!!...
I THINK that is what I meant when I originally used the phrase... "
I have no tickets on myself", to which a friendly responder HERE,
'
joeqsmith' said he had to look the phrase up on 'Google'!!!... To be honest, I thought it was globally understood, but yes!, I NEVER
think I know it all, or even a fraction of that!, but there are SOME things i DO know/understand, that I have been known to 'SHARE' with
family/friends that I 'think' they would be better for 'knowing' !!! hahahaha...

My days are numbered... but I still have a seemingly unquenchable thirst for certain knowledge... Maybe I'm in denial about the inevitable,
and maybe it's just the lifelong "
Quest for knowledge" thang!! I really don't know?......
I ONLY would like to FEEL that I've contributed SOMETHING!! over my decades. and I hope those I've helped over the years, remember!!
