I'm becoming obsessed with NASA and it's shenanigans, Please help

Just spent a sunny afternoon indoors watching this
That got me curious about actual apollo 11 film footage (can't believe most of the original it was wiped/lost).
and found this
http://www.hq.nasa.gov/alsj/a11/video11.htmlI can't remember much now about watching the moon landings when I was 8 years old on TV during my summer school holidays. Must have seemed boring or maybe I felt overwhelmed by what I was seeing. I remember all the beeping as mission control spoke to the crew. I remember staying up into the night (which was a privilige for an 8 year old).
But from an emotional point of veiw I can't look at photo's of the Earth from space without wanting to cry. I get tears in my eyes every time I see it.
I'm only now beginning to take it what they actually achieved back then. It's beyond words.